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[28 May 2007|04:29pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | world upon your shoulders - silverchair. ] Ngeeeeh. i cant carry on with school. i want to go back to kl and eat nasi lemak. ive got this craving for nasi lemak over the past few days. they were supposed to bring me eat nasi lemak last night but it was too lateeee. saya lapar dowhh. i'm cooking tonight. for the first time since ive got no school tomorrow. all i can think of right now is food eventho i should be studying. ( i will in half an hour or so) its 4.30pm and everyone's asleep. its exam week so i get days off like today and tomorrow. ive got physics on wednesday which is freaking me out big time i cant fail anymore. i ammmmmmmmmmmm....confused with a certain thing that is happening in my life but im trying to shove it away at the moment and concentrate with exams. after exams.... ive got another month before i go back and spend time with my family and sof, ariane and armand in bali. :) after that........ last term of school and..... TEE. aiyaaaaaaaa. :( this certain person is pissing me off. but i find it funni that she's a total drama queen and thinks the world revolves around her because......it DOESNT. haha. he would agree with me! harry potter and otp is coming out soon and i wont be able to watch it on the first day. :( but i do get to get the book first thing in the morning with azza. tradition weyh. :)) post comment

WHATEVER YARRR. [02 May 2007|09:13pm] [ mood | annoyed ] Im sooooo freaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakin pissed! so there's this 'so called friend' yea, she's been hell miserable but I didnt know that. Let me repeat, I DID NOT KNOW. So there i was being all happy on msn so i msged her telling her my story. she didnt sound happy after i told her what happened so i asked her what's wrong. and she said nothing. it was SO obvious that there was something wrong so i asked her again. Then she started saying that i use her or some shit like that. i mean wtf?! im there telling her my story like i usually do. She does it to so whats her problem? i got hell hurt. like, realllly hurt. why the fuck was she saying all these stuff. I mean HONESTLY this wasnt the first time i got pissed at her. i love this girl to bits but sometimes...arghh. It doesnt really matter really because i mean no one's perfect and she's a great great friend. I dont usually fight with her. I fought with her once... anywayyyy, she was online today so i told her that when she's miserable, she brings ppl down with her. thats not that first time she's done it but she's gone TOO FAR. fuckin hell man, i honestly could bitch slap her but.....haha no la that's a bit too much. she said 'its nice to know that' then she blocked me. i got SO SO SO pissed off so i msged her phone. i told her that she was selfish and her peragai macam babi. i know i sound harsh but i never been that angry with her before. she's rude and inconsiderate sometimes its crazy. she thinks she's right ALL the time. Well hunni, hate to burst your bubble, NO ONE'S FUCKING PERFECT. i told her how i felt/feel. EVERYTHING. then she said im the same. no way dude, i am nothing like her. I dont blame ppl and get angry at them for no reason. just because she's fucking depressed doesnt mean everyone else have to feel bad. i read her blog. she said im the 4th person to say that she's selfish and she admitted that she is. WELL DONNEE you understandddddd. then she said something bout me not understanding her feelings or some shit. i was always there for her when she needed someone. i listened to her problems. just because i havent been talking to her lately and actually know her recent problems, she had to say all those harsh stuff to me. fucking hell mannnnnnnnnnn. she even asked if being selfish is a bad thing. IT ISSS! she said that she's being misjudged. well after 4 ppl i dont think i misjudgeddd. and WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO YOU? pls answer that. and yeah i know you care about your own feelings but that doesnt mean you have to hurt MINE aswell. && dude, i dont have to stop being selfish because i know im NOT. stop blaming ppl. its pathetic. hv a good dayyy. :) post comment

Star sign. [21 Mar 2007|07:36pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Teenage Dirtbag ] I so believe in my horoscope this yr. this is what is says... Librans are still in cycle, which is pretty confusing because you are bit seeing guys clearly. The right thing to do in 2007 is to stay totally real about crushes and infatuations and love because Librans have very starry eyes or the guy who is admiring you is seeing everything thru rose-tinted glasses. You need to CALM DOWN( muahahahaha) and be REALISTIC about who your crush really is. Dont be swept up in fantasy. .....I so think this is true tho. I really need to calm down. You guys know i go totally crazy for boys. I am so confused right now. I dont know if he is the right one. Recently someone else hv came in the picture. Maybe just tiny bit. AND the realistic part. A part of me think that we dont match well. I dont know mannnnn. chill nadiah, chill. post comment

ELACS excursion. [20 Mar 2007|06:48pm] [ mood | busy ] Was awesome. i actually had fun. i hung out with milan and kelvin most of the time. oh, we went to fremantle prison. the prisoners were really talented. i swear if i was as talented as them, i wouldnt mind being in jail. ......JOKES! but really, thats how good they were. i'd post some of the pics but its too big, so yarrrr! today was sweeeeeet. i had LOADS of fun on saturday. it was bella's party and i was ummm... yeah. but i mean, if i wasnt ummm..yeah, i wouldnt make new friends. so, i made new friends.. HA! i went clubbing with danah for the 2nd time as well. ended up with a sprained foot. but its all good nowwww. (i even tripped and this bouncer caught me. IT WAS HILARIOUSSS! :)) he looks so beautiful. that's all i hv to say. im coming back in 20 days or so. Ima start studying now. post comment

insomnia. ahahaha. righttt. [12 Mar 2007|12:55am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Crush - Jennifer Paige ] i cant go to sleeeeeeeep. maybe its because i slept the whole day today. wait. IM SURE its because i slept the whole day today. my sis, muiz and me. we slept the whole freakin day. muiz and me we actually woke up like at 12 to have brunch then we went back to bed. we actually got up like betul2 at around 5. That was when he came into my room and out the balcony and said there are like a group of half naked teenagers (all of them are guys) are like exercising outside my apartment across the street. I got up and went out to see if it was true. Which it was. and i was like PHWOARRR. but i didnt really spy on them for long pasal malu. I looked like shit. So i came back in. And decided to take a swim since they were excersing, might as well i do it too rightttt? (that was after i ate like 1/4 bag of chips). I swam like 100 times back and forth. It wasnt that hard because my swimming pool isnt that big. And i did 100 crunches. Im actually proud of myself. hahahahahahahahahaha. I officially can tag this weekend the worst. I had a big fight with dani and danah. Everything is sorted now tho. i dont get angry for too long coz its just not me. But ima take caution now. I hate being treated like im stupid. i am not stupid. so yarrrrrrrrrr. Danah's leaving for good this saturday. I dont want fights. Im not a fighter. never was, never will be. But i can be a samseng when i want to. *note: i did make my sis's ex cry. that was just the best. heeee! am i the best baby sister or what?! Chelsea played Tottenham tonight. Seriously at first i thought tottenham was gonna win because they scored their first goal in the 5 mins. I got damn pissed weyhhh. My lampsy scored 2 goals. :)) im very proud of him. He's my king. seriously. for a 29 yr old. HE'S ONE HOT TALENTED BUGGER. In the end, it was 3-3. (if it wasnt for essien scoring his own goal it would be 3-2, i'd be happier, but nooooo, but oh welllll) tomorrow's mondayyyy. schooool. i really gotta try going to bed. I'd like to wish my babies good luck for tomorrow. You guys are gonna do fine. I have faith in you and i'll always be proud of you guys. after tomorrow you're officially not school kids anymore :) im going nowwww. muahhhh! post comment

bayern munchen [08 Mar 2007|09:10pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Lights Surrounding You - Evermore ] I'm home alone on a thursday night. My kakak and my cousin muiz are out doing God knows what with their friends. easy for them coz they're in uni and ive got school tomorrow. :( I'm eating mac and cheese that my cousin made for me. i'm wearing my favourite pj's while watching one of my fav football teams playyy while doing gay. very gay english homework. i feel so comfortable. lol. and so full. i dont know if i should go to school early or late tomorrow. ive got free period, first period. im blurting out like random stuff. oh oh. m. torres looks as tho he's comfortable with podolski VERY close to him during the corner kick. ( i know id be. ;)) sick i know. ive got a sick mind. real madrid's goal kicker is welllll fit. lahm is adorable. podolski is to die for. i can see blood. thats just so gross. i dont like blood. you guys knw that. yes you do. anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, my life's been pretty teenager-ish. a girl trying to find a way to say hi to the guy he likes. i so got to find the courage. im feeling kinda negative bout my friends here. its something that's hard to explain. tryna figure out what to do right now. Am confused at the moment with everything that's been happening. starting to be a bum thats for sure. i dont know what i want. i know one thing that i really want tho. well 2. i just dont know how to get them. x post comment

[19 Feb 2007|06:51pm] [ mood | sleepy ] It's almost middle of term 1. How time flies. I swear these first few weeks have been so hectic. I've been getting tons of homework. Thank God i've got free periods now so i could finish them up in school and mostly study at night. I dont know how you guys can handle like 10 subjects when doing your SPM. I'm thinking of changing the course im doing. I'm doing this foudation course at the moment that will only let me go to W.A universities. I know i'll end up going to one of the W.A unis but i just like to keep my options open yknow.. I'm planning to change to TEE. I want to do drama. BADDDDDDDDDLY. I'm missing kl. I miss my girlfriends. I miss my beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed. I miss my grandpas. I miss my grandma. I miss my aunts and uncles. I miss my baby cousinsssss! I'm about to fall asleep. :) ps: Ashvind told me that the boys are coming here to Perth. They better beeeee!!!! Maybe you girls could join in as well? COME VISIT ME LA! :)))))) post comment

9 days to go.. [21 Jan 2007|10:46pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Saturday night - Mcfly ] Then i'm off to perth. I can't believe holidays almost over. A lot has happened really. More fights. Tuition. Falling out of like. (haha) MORE LONG LECTURES. Driving for the first time. Prom. Football. More football. (finally found a sport i ACTUALLY like to watch) Weird dreams. (i mean really weird dreams) Jose Mourinho. (I read about him in the papers like almost every week) Deciding what i really wanna do and where to go. (uni: curtin) Spending time with my two new beautiful cousins; Suraya and Mansur. and the best of all, A NEW SISTERRRRR. RAIQAAAAAA! AHHHHHHH! how am i gonna leave you next week?! I'm sorry i didnt get to spend a lot of time with you guys. You know how my parents are like. going out is like commiting a crime. I'll be able to when i'm done with my WAUFP exam. EXAM YEAR DOHHHH! finally. then i'll be done with school like you guys! =P xx post comment

doesnt feel like a new yr. [01 Jan 2007|11:43am] like every other yr. i was stuck at home for new yrs. [my grandma's to be exact] ive never been angry at my parents like this before. ive been crying for days. i think im falling into depression. i feel like a bird in a cage. seriously. i thought by this age, at LEAST i would be set free a few times. my dad's been saying stuff about me these past few days saying that i can do nothing. to be direct, useless is the word. one of my friends in murdoch once asked me, why am i so emo when i hv everything? [thats what he asked me la kan] i just said i dont know. honestly, i dont think i have everything. something's missing but i didnt know what. ..now i do. attention from my parents. its not about getting stuff from your parents or shit like that. its their genuine love and care. i dont think i get that from my parents. especially my mum. i know they love me. but sometimes i wonder. if they love my other siblings more than they love me. it shows. i just dont know if they actually do. last night during new yrs kinda proved that. i spent new yrs at my grandma's house doing absolutely nothing. my toks all were shocked to see my sis and me at home. i mean no 17 and 18 yr olds stay at home during new yrs. my parents went out. dumped us at my grandmas. my mum wasnt supposed to go. that was the main reason i decided to stay. to spend new yrs with my mum. then on the way to my grandparents house, my mum's friend called her asking her to come to the party. she said no at first in the end she said yes. she said she'd be at my grandma's house at 12. but wow, UNsurprisingly, she didnt show up before 12, she showed up at 12.45 instead. i was so upset. i was heartbroken. i stayed home for her. instead she wasnt there. her excuse was, dinner was late. which made me even more upset... ...on saturday when my dad threw his tantrum at the family for being late and making excuses, he said that if you're late dont make excuses. thats exactly what my mum did. she said dinner was late thats why she couldnt make it. i understand dinner was late. but she called at 12.30, told my bro that she's waiting for dessert. it was just dessert man. she had 5 kids waiting for her at her mum's house she tak kisah. enough said. a few days before new yrs, my mum asked me to go out. i said ive got no plans. so she was like 'make plans la' and i did. i made plans with ariane and sof. everything was set. then my dad said i look sick [when i really wasnt, well a bit of a flu which i can barely feel] he said there's NO chance i can go out on new yrs. i was upset but i didnt show. i told sof and ariane that i had to bail. then at 8.30pm last night he came out of the room asking me why am i not out with my friends. i was jst looked at him for a few seconds and said 'ithought you said i couldnt go out?' he said when did i say that in a serious tone as tho im blaming him for something. i didnt want to fight on new yrs so i just said nvm i canceled everything already. he left saying i'll be at tok mi's house before 12. in the end.. my dad didnt even show up at my grandparent's house. he kept saying to me that i care more about my friends than my family. look what he's done. i cant talk to my parents. i cant talk to my sister either. she doesnt care about me. i dont know who i can talk to in my family. im am so in a fucking black hole. i am lonely. thats what i feel. it only leads to depression. post comment

Argh! [12 Dec 2006|09:42pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Beautifully Broken - Ashlee Simpson ] I hate it when i dissapoint my dad. I hate it a lot. Today was my grandparent's anniversary. We had dinner. The whole family at MO. That was when i found out i wont be returning to Murdoch College. Im done with high school. And i just found out like a few hours ago! I didnt even get to say bye to my friendssss. Apparently im going to CIC. Its like UNI. Well, kinda. and its FAR away from murdoch. I dont want this honestly. I want to finish high school...properly. I WANT TO GRADUATE FROM HIGH SCHOOL. I didnt even get to have my say.. My dad decided by himself. how can he do that?! I know he's doing whats best but who's the one that's gonna suffer? ME! I hate changing schools. Im not good at making new friends.. I love my friends back in murdoch. they mean a lot to me.. And what about him?? i dont think i'll ever see him again. well thats a bit exaggerating but i wont get to see him like everyday anymore... he'll never know how i feel.. well, maybe he knows but you know what i mean. what i really feel. i feel so sucky right now. sbu's prom is this thursday night and i dont even know if im going. ive got my date. and i dont want to cancel out on him last minute.. im grounded. but my dad doesnt know about this prom. i gotta wake up early and ask him. honestly i really couldnt care less about this prom anymore ever since i heard that i wont be able to finish yr 12 next yr. but this would be my last prom... fuck im crying. how could he do this to me... again. he gets me everything i want and everythingi need. i guess i should say yes about going to CIC. but this is my future we're talking about. it's supposed to be MY DECISION. i dont want to grow old and tell my children that i did not graduate from high school. i did not experience life as a senior... shit that would suck. it is gonna suck. i want to experience things and live my life. but i guess my dad doesnt understand. he thinks education is number one. well, i think life is. i dont know what to do... 1 comment|post comment

[03 Dec 2006|10:09pm] i like boys. yes i do. azza knows what im talking about... SHAG SHAG SHAGGGG! im very hyper now... just to let you know. =) post comment

ngeee. [03 Dec 2006|05:22pm] you spm ppl will be done with spm soooooon. yeepeeeeee! i dont know why im so excited but i am. i am sooooo proud of you guys. you'll be done with high school. UNI!! i'll still be in high school. lucky ppl. hehehehehehehehe. i'm replying his comments. my palms are all sweaty now. im such a dork. i cant stop thinking about him... so typical nadiah. i bought the whole season 3 of the o.c. i'm done with 4 episodes. i can bet you guys anything i'll be done in 3 days. im o.c obsessed its not even funni. its like harry potter. i get so happy when i watch it. i love marrisa's clothes. id do anything to have a wardrobe. hee! i even bought poc 2 which im gonna watch tonight with my brothersss. aaaaaaaaand another random teen movie. my nokia got stolen when i was you know what. im so upset. i just got that phone like 2 months ago. i was lke in love with it. whoever took it, if i find out, i will NEVER talk to that person again. it was one of my friends. i know. coz they were the only ones in the house. i miss perth already. its so not the same. danah's flying back to kl tonight. farrah's coming in jan. dhanial...im not sure. and lloyd sometime next week. i got my dress for sbu's prom. im excited. =) lots of loveeeeeee, nadiah. x post comment

to another emotional dayyy. [29 Oct 2006|08:48pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | I can hear someone having a showerrrrr. ] i dont know what's happening to my friendships here.It's like im losing them. This past few months. We had this strong bond. But now its like nothinggggg. I wont mention names but recently, HONESTLY, i feel so left out. I dont really have a bestfriend i can confide to like every single day since all you guys are in kl. I mean when im in kl, i just click. I have friends who actually care about my feelings. I know the ones here in aussie care too. But there's too much backstabbing and i get hurt a lot and shit like that. I never really felt these kind of feelings towards friends till i came here. It's tough. Im different from the other four you see. I have different interests and shit. But yeah, i do click ( i know im confusing you guys right now )...friendship-wise. butt, sometimes things get out of handd and i hate it. i HATE it a lot. I feel like a loner. I really got hurt by this certain someone recently. Sometimes i feel usedddd. But i love them. I love each one of them like...a lotttttt. and a lot is A LOT. My relationship with Jamie is going really wellll. He's such a sweetie. The age gap doesnt bother me much anymore. I can talk to him about stuff. ANY stuff. HAHA. anythingggg at all. He listens. He's there when im feeling downn. I love the fact that he can make me smile even if im sad. He's one cheesy boi i gotta saay. but i LOVE it. I love that he listen to my problems and he actually CARES and tries to do something about it. I love it when we try to be near each other every single second of the day. I love it when he hugs me from the back kisses my cheek, without fail when im at my locker taking out my books. I love it when we're always staring at each other from a far. I'd always smile and he'd nod his head. I love it when he msges me at random times saying that he loves me. I just love the fact that he's Jamie-lee. ....At least ive got something to be happy about. Yesterday was the school ball. IT WAS AWESOMEEE. I had funn. I danced all night longgggg. I couldnt really walk after that. I was high on dancinggg. Yesterday night, i SAW the truth. I SAW MY OLD MATH TEACHER DANCING WITH ALL THE OTHER OLD MATH TEACHERSS. they were seriously strutting their stuff. ahaha. And Mr Duthie (my physics teacher) was dancing with Milan the whole timeee. That was funni aswell. I slow-danced with HIM. honestly, it was a bit awkward. Being his date that night was awkward but nice. I mean, i like talking to him and stuff but, I just dont feel that way anymore...It's just too late.. And i cant change anything. I wouldnt want to change anything. I gave my heart to someone else. The last person i danced with last night was my brother from another mother, Lester. My sis's close friend. He saw me dancing with nikki, sam and tim so he pulled me away and danced with me. was quite funny. When we hugged on the 2nd last day of school. I almost criedd. I was walking out of class, i bumped into him and he was like 'hey watch where you're going nadiah!' and i was like 'YOU watch where you're going!' and he was like 'what's your problem ah!?' and i was like 'lester...' and i he was like 'nadiah..what is it?' he saw my expression changed. i was like 'im really gonna miss youu' and he said he's gonna miss me tooooo!!! and i just burstttttt. I DONT WANT LESTER TO GOOOOOOOOOOO! :( i just realised i sayang him laaaa! so guysssss. lesson: if someone bullies you all the time. it means, THEY CARE. ahahaha. Oh yeah, i won the lucky drawww! Dinner for two at Hyatt. Should i ask jamie to come with me? Lol. Im gonna go stare at the same math questions againn. gniteeeee. 1 comment|post comment

HAPPY! [10 Oct 2006|08:07pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | I'm Not Missing You - Stacie Orrico ] You know why?! Because my auntie and uncle just came back from iran with two iranian babies. They adopted them! They're SO freakin cuteeee. Suraya and Mansur. They're gorgeous babiess. They're speciallll. lol. Suraya has deep green eyes andddd Mansur smiles ALL the time. I love babies mannn. My mum's due in 2 months and a half. WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR?! hehehehehehehe. Im SO sleepy right now. I woke up at six thirty coz i had to go to the airport. I've never seen my uncle THAT happy. He was smilling most of the time so yuppp, it's all good. =D I might be going to At's house today. I promised her i'd go see her. Probably go to her house after she's done with schoolll. Ive got no tuition anymoreeeee. So im free everydayyy. Im getting my new phone tomorrow. =D Guyssssssssss, my birthday is soooooon. ;)) I cant wait to celebrate with the vees on friday and with family, sof's family and ariane's family on saturday night. ARMAND'S COMING BACKKKKKK! i miss him sooo muchh, so yeahh. friday and saturday are the nights babeh! TODAY'S DAHLIA'S BIRTHDAYYY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANGGG. I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU. <33333333. i barely can keep my eyes open. I havent been getting pleasent dreams recently coz i had to get up bloody early almost everyday for a weeeeek, so im going to bed nowww. sleeping is gooooooooooooooooooooood. love love. post comment

CALCULUS. [14 Aug 2006|10:38pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Swing Swing - AAR. ] So like, ive been staring at the same question for an hour. No shit. Gnt's too hard for me even if i keep saying to myself that i can do it. I suck. I REALLY suck. Today is monday. Things actually went well. First there was physics. I had a prac test. And he came. After 4 days of not seeing him. Feels great. *smiles* Dani didnt come to school. But everything's good now. Everyone's actually happy. Im happy. Tomorrow's subjects selection for all yr elevens. Thinking of what to take next yr gave me a headache but i guess i've made my decision; *ELACS *Applicable math *Physics *Information Systems. andddddd, Art and Design for an extra subject. I gotta make a folio for architecture. I want to continue with drama tho..but i cant, i'll get over it. hehe. I AM FINALLY GETTING MY DRESS FOR THE BALL THIS WEEKEND. I am dead exciteddddd. I'm gonna look for a pink and black dress. Like the one i wanted to get in Mid Valley the other day. Za would know which one. The one i couldnt fit my boobs in. HAHA. Seriously. That WAS my DREAM DRESS. It was perfect. But NOOOO. My boobs just had to be TOO BIG! Dammit. Sandeep asked me to choose his tux for him. Well, actually i asked him if i could choose for him, then he asked me again. Sooo... Yeah, im gonna choose my date's tux. Im SUPER excited ppl! The limo's been booked. The Table too. Ten peeps, 6 Faves! Danah and lloyd. Dani and Shyam. Farrah and her Farhaad. Sandeep and me <3 aaaand jacob and rach. IM FUKIN EXCITED YOOOOOO! I really should be doing my GNT right now. lol. toooooodlesssssssssssssss. post comment

BORED. [11 Jun 2006|06:19pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Making Love To The Camera - The Starting Line ] I stayed home the WHOLE weekend, trying to figure out how to do my intro calc and physics. Pathetic right? I still havent got it done btw. LOL. I seriously do not know how to do. I mean, i asked two ppl, even they dont know. I dont want Mrs. Murray to think that i dont do my homework and shit. I DO! I told myself this semester, im gonna do better and at least pass my Intro calc and soon to be foundies. AND TRY to understand physics. Im not gonna fail physics anymore. seriously. Im sick of failing. I feel so stupid in class. Ngeh. Im not doing well in physics, intro calc, gnt and info sys. Im doing well in ESL and drama. So Danah called me at around 1 just now and asked me to come down to South Perth and hang. But i couldnt because it was too lateee. It takes 20 mins to get to her place, i have to be home by 4.30-5 at least because dinner's at 5.30. Sooooo there really is no point. And i take the taxi, that cost like around 20 bucks. SOOOOOO yeah. =) Im going out next week tho. Carousel, where all the hotties at. Well, some of them at least. =P. Looking at happy couples make me sad. I want a boyfriend. It has been four months i think? Im readdddddy ppl! lol. Im not desperate tho. I love my homestay. I dont want to move. I dont want them to move. I love my room. Its well decorated with the Jonny and Seth on my walls. Meaningful lyrics up on my pin board, pictures, valentine flowers, letters from the vees...Aiyoooo. Things are messed up. I just wanna go back to kl like RIGHT now where my problems will vanish for a while y'knoww. I finally tuned my guitar and now it sounds great. Im happy with thattt. Now i just gotta find the time to play it. I can play the starting of James Blunt's 'You're Beautiful'. Im proud of myself. Lol, i usually suck. My room is really messy btw, Thought i'd share that with you guys. Its hell random. IM RANDOM. Oh well. Soooo, i dont know what else to updateee..Im gonna go start with homework..AGAIN. (i'll probably just stare at one question for about 10 mins). Yeah..Its sad. *sigh*. Yours truly, BORING. 1 comment|post comment

yay! [05 Jun 2006|07:48pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer ] My exams are OVER. I think i did baaaadly for physics and gnt. As always. BUT i did try my best. There's nothing i can do now. So the long weekend is over. I went to Gold Coast to visit my family. My mother's tummy is SO rounddd. Its kinda big for two months. Im so excited. Im gonna get a new siblinggg. I love my mummy. I took care of her this trip. Im scared things will happen to her. Yeah, im paranoid liddat. Sooo. I went shopping. I really need to control my shopping. I dont even know how much i spent! I cried before i got in. I didnt want to leave my mum. And im really gonna miss my dad and my brothers. It was SO sadd. I was the only one crying. I know im gonna see them in a month. But i cannnt wait. SERIOUSLY. My sister said im pathetic. SO? I dont care. Im anak manja. Hee. There's school tomorrow. Im not looking forward to it. no no. I just wanna stay home and sleep and eatt..YUM. I miss my friends back in Malaysiaaa. Im emotional right now. Usually when i update, that means im emo. .................... You guys can start counting down till im back in malaysia: 32 daysss! muahahahahaha. 5 comments|post comment

EXAMS. [25 May 2006|07:21pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Jump - The Faders ] 2nd day of exams. I had gnt today. fucked it up BIG time. it was soooo hard. i didnt get to finish around 4-5 questions that are worth around 20-25 marks!? i dont know... i think i did beter in intro calc... I've got esl tomorrow. I cant study for that. then i thought i should study for physics or info sys, BUT i did not bring home my books. so yeaaaah. there's nothing i can do nooooow. im so sleepy. i'll probably go to bet at around nine tonight. yeeeeh. fukin early. Went to dani's today. i swear, her house is like my dream house. its GORGEOUSSS! her room is soooo cool. just like her. =) corny i know. but i love her. you're my beb daniiiii! XO. punaniiiiiiiii! post comment

Sometimes, i just need balls. [19 May 2006|08:39pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Your Own Disaster - Taking Back Sunday. ] Yeah, that's right. I need balls. Seriously. I do. I cant even do one SIMPLE thing. I just need to find something out eventho i'll end up hurting myself. but bahhh. that's life. my heart's screwed up anyway. drama was shit. he's pissing me off. stop pinching my cheeks goddamit! how can i work with himmm? *breatheeee* yours truly, broken. </3 post comment

So it ends. [01 May 2006|07:12pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | The Suffering - Coheed and Cambria ] Im back in Perth now. The only reason i havent been updating these past few weeks was because i was back in malaysia. I had loads of fun there. I got to spend time with the Vees, FRIENDS and school friends. What more could i ask? But yeah, it just ended. School starts tomorrow. Im homesick already. I just finished unpacking. I miss my mum. A lot. I need a hugs and kisses from her now. Im about to start crying. Im pathetic sometimes you know. Tomorrow's the first day of school of the 2nd term. Im gonna promise myself i'll kick ass this term. Im gonna study my ass off for my semester one exams. When i was in Malaysia, i got to spend time with sofia. That was nice. I missed her a lot while i was here and it was good to see her again. We went to singapore. Her family and my family. Just like old times. Met up with Armand and Ariane too. So that made it better. Just like old times. I heard something about going on a holiday with sof's family again this end of yr. Going on a ski trip as usual. Am excited. Hope it comes trueeee. I baked a cake for azza. It got burnt. lol. Im sorry babyyyy. You're gonna be 17 tomorrowwww. Went for the Quiksilver Revolution Tour when i was in kl. Loads of hotties. I just went for the night session because i just wanted to see The Click Five. And i did. THEY WERE TOTALLY AWESOME. I never knew they were THAT goodlooking. When i watched their videos and look at their pics, they look normal. But When you see them real life, they're GORGEOUS. Especially ETHAN MENTZER. He's beautifulllll. Im in love with himmmmm. I want himmmm. *here comes the boy obsession*. lol. Im gonna pack my bag and sleep early tonight. Maybe finish off my english homework. Im so tired.... ps: you guys dont know how homesick i am right now. I just cried because i wanted my mummy. I still want her now..... 1 comment|post comment

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